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Vendredi 14 Décembre 2018 – I’m back !

17h23 :

Hey folks !

… Re.


Je suis toujours pas dead et je me sens (presque) toujours aussi vide. Haha.

Je sais pas quoi vous dire, et même si vous lisez encore ce blog de malheur.

Il s’en est passé des choses. J’ai maintenant un copain adorable, après les deux connards sur lesquels j’étais tombé.

J’ai fait mon coming out transgenre a BEAUCOUP trop de monde pour citer tous ces gens, et je suis en train de faire les démarches pour changer de prénom (officiellement.)

Voilà !

Samedi 1er Juillet 2017

23h40 :

3rd suicide attempt yesterday at 22h20. Around 700mg of Quétiapine (= Xeroquel.)

Soon after I took the meds, my whole body was shaking. Later I started laughing as if I was crazy, cutting myself in front on one of my best friends.

They wanted me to drink salt water to throw up the meds, or they would send me to the ER.


Jeudi 29 Juin 2017

02h27 :

It’s been quite a long time since I wrote here…

Well I stopped taking my meds (Abilify + Prozac) and I’m super depressive and suicidal since 2 weeks.

I selfharm all the time and today I purged. Falling back into old habits. Maxime’s mom think I’m anorexic but I’m not ??? I just wanna lose weight. And purge. Anyways.


I’m going to take Abilify again really soon. It’s a matter of days.

I can’t sleep, I usually fall asleep around 4:00am and I wake up around 13:00am. /always tired/

See ya


I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don’t want to, but I can’t put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I’ll never be her